JapanEyedPinoy

Wow. Almost 4 years later and I find myself STILL coming back to this account. What I've written back in September of 2017 was in response to a lot of the workload that was thrown onto me and, on top of that, a lot of emotional and mental baggage I've developed. I might've mentioned previously that people I used to trust with my life betraying me and my immediate family. A simple, "Stay the fuck away from us," would've sufficed, but now we're both tens of thousands of dollars down the drain in attorney fees and developed some form of paranoia. At least... I have. I don't know about the rest of my immediate family. They seem to be doing well practicing their faith in God. As for me... I don't know what to believe in anymore. As my creative heart would have it, yes I'm still drawing. Well... kinda. Still relatively unmotivated, but thankfully haven't completely given it up. Still in the military, but so close to leaving. The thing that's scary now is figuring out what I

Much to my dismay, I think I've thrown in the towel.  Now that I'm in the military, I have no time to draw.  I get it.  "If you really wanted to get better, you'd make time for it."  The thing is, I don't.  There's so much I need to learn and it takes up my time.  I cannot just sit down and draw for hours and dabble in new techniques or exercises like I used to.  I can't.  Besides, there's no need for artistic people in my line of work anyway.  It's dumb, but people don't appreciate art.  Just pass it off like an art project to show mommy and daddy and stuff. So, long story short, I've given up drawing, because I don't need to.  Dreams of be

I think I can officially call myself a hardcore casual gamer.  Weird combo, but it makes sense to me, because I think it's ridiculous how people can get so serious when they game to the point where they flame when they lose or strut around pompously when they win.  And then, they bolster about how their genre of gaming is "far superior" compared to other genres.  *cough!* Call-of-Duty! *cough!*  Just digital jugheads to me. But anyway, I play for fun and I enjoy games of many different genres.  So, to say that you play only one genre, and even just one game franchise in some cases, makes you sound like a casual to me.  Strange, I know, but t